At this juncture in my life, there is just so much I am constantly thinking about.
-School isn’t giving me as much stress as usual, but it’s still a big part of whats on my mind. My parents constantly questioning me about my future isn’t helping me either. I guess some major soul searching is in order.
-Working 2 jobs after going to class every single day is very tiring and at the end of everyday how I manage to get up and do it all over again is beyond me.
-YOU think that I am ignoring you or brushing you off, but I would never do that. Why would I just go and throw away the last 3 years of my life like that. I’m sorry if it seemed that way, but it is not like that at all. I am just so busy nowadays during the week I just want to use my free time to its fullest extent. I’m sorry I haven’t been able to hang out with you, but that was my fault. I should put more effort into trying to hang out with you, but it’s just hard still cos you can’t go out like that. I’ll always love you no matter what and ill be here and I’m sorry if it seems like I’m changing, but I will always be the same fun-loving, care-free, crazy guy you met. I haven’t changed its just that theres more responsibilities coming my way and I have to face them head on.
I came up with a small haiku poem in my literature class and I guess it was a sign from God that this is what I need to do in order for my life to go the I want it.
“To look upon the stars,
Means soul searching for a path
That lies beyond our reach.”
