At this juncture in my life, there is just so much I am constantly thinking about. 

-School isn’t giving me as much stress as usual, but it’s still a big part of whats on my mind. My parents constantly questioning me about my future isn’t helping me either. I guess some major soul searching is in order.

-Working 2 jobs after going to class every single day is very tiring and at the end of everyday how I manage to get up and do it all over again is beyond me.

-YOU think that I am ignoring you or brushing you off, but I would never do that. Why would I just go and throw away the last 3 years of my life like that. I’m sorry if it seemed that way, but it is not like that at all. I am just so busy nowadays during the week I just want to use my free time to its fullest extent. I’m sorry I haven’t been able to hang out with you, but that was my fault. I should put more effort into trying to hang out with you, but it’s just hard still cos you can’t go out like that. I’ll always love you no matter what and ill be here and I’m sorry if it seems like I’m changing, but I will always be the same fun-loving, care-free, crazy guy you met. I haven’t changed its just that theres more responsibilities coming my way and I have to face them head on.

I came up with a small haiku poem in my literature class and I guess it was a sign from God that this is what I need to do in order for my life to go the I want it.

“To look upon the stars,

    Means soul searching for a path

That lies beyond our reach.”

Hello Michael’s followers, this is Gretchen updating for Michael. I’m typing as he says it, so here it goes:

So my life has been going pretty well, as of lately. I’ve been playing a lot of basketball, trying to spend as much time with my girlfriend of two years before I leave, and spending a lot of time with my family because I have a retreat to go to with them. I’m going to New Jersey for Labor Day to play in a basketball tournament and my 18th birthday is coming up soon :) Okay that’s all for now.

-Michael

today is me and gretchen’s 21 months. hoooray! :p she loves me very much.

i’ll update the rest when i get home. i’m being a bad boy and i’m on tumblr when i’m supposed to be doing my work.

k bye.

So I haven’t posted up anything in awhile or been on tumblr for that matter. Last night my family and I (minus my brother) were on our way home from VA for a birthday party. We had been driving around all day, we went to PA then to VA. We ate at an Olive Garden and after that my dad had been complaining of an upset stomach. It took about 4 hours to get to VA, but we stopped to buy something for the party and all of a sudden my dad started complaining of heartburn, but I didn’t mind it and I offered to drive for him. We get to the party and he starts complaining that his heartburn is unbearable and that he has alot of gas. An hour later, he tells us he is feeling better, but wants to go home. We leave the party and all of a sudden my dad complains his chest is hurting so bad, so my mom has to drive. We drive 30 more minutes and now my dad is complaining of excruciating pain. I’m thinking to myself WHAT IS GOING ON?!? My mom is telling me to call 911, so I call and I start crying while im on the phone because I couldn’t contain myself. I had NEVER seen my dad in such a vulnerable state. He was breathing heavy and was feeling so weak.

We went to the hospital to find out that my dad only had gallstones, which was a huge relief. I had so many thoughts of memories with my dad. My first memory running through my head was him teaching me how to shoot a basketball and I certainly didn’t want this to be my last memory of him. I’m sitting in the waiting room quieter than ever because I never want to see my dad in this state again. I just want to let everyone know to just never take anything for granted and to spend as much time with your dad as possible because you never know what’ll happen. DAD, I LOVE YOU AND YOU ARE THE ROCK OF OUR FAMILY.

So, I know I may be a few hours early, but I couldn’t wait… So basically this post goes out to Gretchen Kaye Isabel De Leon Lubao =) It was April 11th 2008, when I took Gretchen’s hands as she sat upon her porch and asked her if she would do me the honor of being my girlfriend. I can honestly say that that day will be the most memorable day of my life. From that day forward my days have only seemed to get brighter and brighter. I’m not sure if it was the fact that she was smiling thinking about me or whenever I was around her, she just seemed to brighten every room she walked into. =) Geez kinda corny right? Oh well she didnt seem to think so the night before I serenaded her many times and sweet talked her till she cried =). She may kill me for leaking out that information but its ok she definitely loves it. Many people didnt know that I had only known her for 4 days before I had asked her to be mine. Yes I know 4 DAYS?! LOL, but yes I guess you could say it was love at first sight and alot of people may think thats impossible, but people lemme tell you alil something, this was definitely it. I know over the course of 16 months of being together we’ve endured many hardships, but I never once lost hope that our love for each other would pull through. We have had many great times together and many sad times, but yet again love prevailed =) I know many people are thinking to themselves that, “oh this is just something that’ll last til high school ends,” but I beg to differ. My love for you now if anything has only gotten stronger and stronger each passing day and I don’t plan on having it die down one bit. I love you so much and I never want to lose you. I will do everything in my power to make sure that nothing will ever come between us =) I know you feel the same way too and I can’t stress how much I love you. I know you tell me not to worry about you, but babe I just can’t help it. Sometimes I lie in my bed at night wondering how did I ever get so lucky? I guess God just felt that you were just PERFECT for me =). There is never a moment that goes by where I am not thinking about you or wishing I was with you at that very moment. I know we don’t have the perfect relationship and may fight, but HEY!, whatever doesn’t kill you makes you stronger. Babe you have always been there for me and there is no doubt in my mind that you will always be there in the future. I love you so much that sometimes it hurts just being away from you when I have to leave for just a few moments, even though I will be back. I plan on never ruining the best thing to ever happen to me and I can’t wait to hear your reaction to this post. I love you so much my baby, my honeybun, my sweetie and more importantly……MY MAHAL =) <3 I love you with all of my heart, my mind, my body, and my soul Sincerely, Your Love =)